Well, here we are again after roughly a four month hiatus. How completely imperfect and messy am I? VERY! That’s okay though. God is still doing His work in my life, and we are tweaking and growing and changing daily. It’s totally awesome!
Over a year ago I started on this new journey. This “Christ in Me”, follow God’s plan kind of journey, knowing where I was hoping to go, and having absolutely no idea where God was taking me. My hopes were WAY off and His plan is unravelling oh-so-much better than I had ever imagined. Though my journey has not been without its worries. Lots of them. And I find myself dwelling on them, over and over again, along the way. See, I am a worrier. My mom likes to say it’s genetic, passed down from my Gram. Well, genetic or not, its there, ever-present in my chemical make-up.
I worry about the things I can’t control, rather than worrying about the things that I can. What I need to do is control the things I can, or the things that God puts on my heart, and let God have the rest. Easier said versus done, I know, but He is the Almighty and He gives us the strength to persevere.
Isaiah 45:5-6 “I am the Lord, and there is no other; apart from me there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me, so that from the rising of the sun to the place of its setting men may know there is none besides me.”
I have to remind myself, as I am sure we all do, that God is here with us. He knows our every fear, every worry, every happiness, every hurt, and in His time, it will all be taken care of. I (We) just don’t always know how to let it be His time. That’s part of us being imperfect sinners. From that we learn and we grow, though, we will never get it quite right.
I’m sure you’ve heard that saying, “Let go and let God.” While a large part of that is absolute truth, He also enables us to carry out His plan. He gives us the tools, the ambition, the strength, the love, the desire, the perseverance, and the free will to execute His master plan. What we do with it, or don’t, can determine the outcome of our life, or other’s lives. It is a delicate balance, and all you can do is pray. Pray for guidance and love and strength to make the right choices at the right times.
As for me, I will probably always be a worrier, though I like to think my mind may be a little more at ease with each passing day, regardless of what the worry may be. I just have to keep reminding myself that this is God’s plan and it is going to run on God’s time, not mine, regardless of how often or not I worry or dwell or persist. I have to give it to Him, and He will dish it out as He sees fit. Hey, that’s why He is the Creator.
So for now, Feed Yourself, Girl! with the comfort of knowing that you don’t have to worry, and you don’t have to take on the world. God is here, and tomorrow is waiting.
feed yourself, girl 