Stop whatever you are doing, right now. I want you to take a minute to ask yourself a very important question: Who is the most insecure person you know?
I am willing to bet most of you answered with, “ME.” I know I did.
I am by far, without a doubt, the most insecure person I know. In fact, right now I am nervous about what you all are thinking because this post is late, again. All sorts of cynical, judgemental phrases cross my mind: “Can’t that girl get her stuff straight?” “It’s not that hard to write a blog, she should be able to keep up with it.” “She is late…again!” And the list goes on.
The fact of the matter is, is I know I am far from perfect. I am my own worst critic; and I am the only person who can make me feel self conscious, less than, or unloved. And the same goes for you. Some days we don’t feel pretty enough. Some days we feel overweight. Some days we feel like nothing we do is right. Some days we feel like we are undesirable or unlovable. Some days I just feel like I am not enough.
It seems like lately I have been dealing with my insecurities more often than I usually do. I worry what people at work think. I worry about what people at church think. I worry about what my friends think. I worry about what my children think. I worry about what my parents think. I worry about what God thinks. With all of this insecurity and worrying, I tend to over think. And the over thinking causes me to take action to try to “fix” the insecurity and do things to push boundaries I wish that I hadn’t. Then I look back in hindsight and wish I had just let God handle it. It’s the only way to handle it.
I have recently adopted the motto “Let Go and Let God.” As hard as it is to do, it alleviates the insecurities that weigh me down on a daily basis. I have to worry less about my fears and insecurities, and more about releasing them to God and trusting and loving my Lord and Savior. Then the rest will take care of itself (meaning God will handle it). Now, by no means am I a pro at letting go, or will I ever claim to be. There will always be insecurities I will try to remedy myself and end up screwing up beyond my repair. It’s a part of the imperfect human nature each one of us carries. But if myself, as well as all of you, can look past the issues of now and trust in God with the future He has planned, it makes the weight of our imperfect human nature a little less to bear.
I am still a fairly new Christian in my adult life and it is going to take time for me to work some of my faults out, though I will never get it completely right. I just hope and pray that in the meantime, I can learn and grow to be a better, less insecure, imperfect Christian. I am saved by grace, and grace alone. I know that and am humbled by it.
With all your faults, and all your heart, Feed Yourself, Girl! You will be humbled when you do, insecurities and all.
2 Corinthians 1:3-5 (NIV)
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.”
feed yourself, girl 