Today I played in the rain with my 12 year old daughter. She had packed a picnic for us as a belated birthday present to me (I am now officially 30), and we headed to the park for some much needed mother-daughter time. We ate our sandwiches and chips happily, and then headed into the grass to romp around with the chiweenie dog. As the rain began to fall, we started rolling around in the grass, doing cartwheels and just general horsing around with the dog and each other. By the time we were finished and headed back to the car, we were soaked and laughing like two little school girls. We had water dripping from our hair and chins and noses. It was the most fun that I have had in a long time. For just a little while, all of the stress and problems of the everyday just slipped away and it was just her, I, God, and the rain..oh, and the chiweenie. It was perfect and I feel blessed to have shared that with my daughter.
For the past month I have been on an emotional roller coaster, a boat in rough water, in the midst of a storm, whatever you want to label it. Life has put some significant changes before me and I have been pressed from every which direction to find an answer to what has been laid out. I have cried and screamed and prayed and racked my brain to the point of over feeling and over thinking. I am so afraid that I am going to make the wrong decision and fall flat on my face, let myself down, let others down, and let God down. I just don’t know!
Here is what I do know: Sometimes you just have to have faith. With all of the ins and outs and ups and downs that life presents, sometimes you just have to leap and let faith take you where it may. God has a plan and me over feeling and over thinking and worrying about controlling the situation doesn’t ease an already difficult decision. It’s time for me to take a step forward with no clear destination and put all of my faith in the Lord. You step out into the storm with the knowledge that you are going to get soaked and you are going to step in big, wet puddles. You make the best of all of the obstacles that are presented. You embrace the cool, wet feel of the rain and the music of the thunder, and you jump and splash in all of the puddles that are in your path. You trust that God will take care of you, even if you can’t yet see the sun, because you know at the end of that storm, there will be a rainbow. So, its time for me to put this very large burden in the hands of the Lord. I need to have the faith and trust in Him that He will take care of me and this life that He has gifted me. It is time to live boldy for Him (thanks Mike) and live my life to glorify Him and love Him. It is time to step out into the storm and dance in the rain. So with this I urge you to Feed Yourself, Girl! A little rain is very good for the soul!
Ephesians 3:12 (KJV)
“In whom we have boldness and access with confidence by the faith of him.”
feed yourself, girl 