I am facing a harsh reality. Okay, okay, not THAT harsh. Just read.
I am coming into my thirtieth year. Oh no?! Oh yes!
I have friends who are faithfully not letting me forget the age milestone I am about to hit (you know who you are). I know that before this year even started, it was going to be a life-changing one. It has been, amazingly so, and it is only mid-May. I have grown in ways that I could have never imagined. I have found this new, imperfect, steadfast family within my church. Most importantly, I am finding out about myself and about who I am by living with Christ in me.
When I was a little girl, I would lay down at night and pray. I remember the way I felt as I would have my conversations with the Lord. I loved Him so much, it was like I was throwing my heart at Him. It’s the only way I can describe how it felt. I loved Him that much. He was always there. Always.
As I was growing up and walking down the lonely path of trials and adversity, I lost that love and I lost sight of Him being there. At first, I was so wrapped up in other things that it didn’t really bother me. However, as I got older, I began to wonder what had happened to my Lord and to my heart. Soon, I was grasping at everything that I could to get that love back. I tried different churches and I tried different prayers, but nothing worked. It had never crossed my mind that it could be me.
Until now.
I needed to change me. I needed to open myself back up to Christ. I needed to rely on Him. I needed to trust Him and love Him.
I needed to throw my heart at Him.
I needed to need Him.
I needed to realize that no matter how old I am or how old I get, I will always be His little girl, His child. That child-like, unconditional love will always be there, it just takes loving Him and trusting Him with every aspect of my life. He is my relationship priority and through Him all things are possible.
Going forward, I know I need to put Christ in the middle of my life. He needs to be right smack-dab in the middle of my family, my relationships, and my everything. I will love Him with all that I am, the very best that I can. Stumbles and all.
So, bring on the thirtieth year, I say! Bring on the life changes! Bring on the trials and adversity! And bring on the unconditional love for my Lord and Savior.
I will ALWAYS be His little girl.
Feed Yourself, Girl! Unconditionally. In Christ. Always.
Romans 8:16-17 (NIV)
“The Spirit Himself testifies that we are God’s children. Now, if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.”
feed yourself, girl 